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7 years in a Mobile Prison (just got released...)
RE: When I was 26, I went through a depressive spiritual crisis...
When I was 26, I went through a depressive spiritual crisis...
I walked out of Sunday service in the middle of The Lord's Supper. With tears in my eyes, I went outside the building, slumped over on a wall with my face in my hands. I was sick to my stomach...
I was battling with severe confusion in my understanding of reality. Surrounded by people who, if they knew the unshackling of this programming in me, would turn on me in a heartbeat...
and they did...
Things didn't make sense anymore, man. I spent years defending preprogrammed beliefs, arguing, debating, and judging others...only to wake up to the fact I was fighting for something that was implanted in me and not my original ideas.
I've noticed that these beliefs influenced the:
Type of books I've read...
Friendship Circles I had...
Type of knowledge I consumed...
Day to day activities I engaged in...
Type of job opportunities I picked...
Financial opportunities I turned down...
Business opportunities I turned away from...
I realized at 27 years old that my life was the making of societal pressures and NOT my own true calling!
There was a deep spiritual void within me. As my programming started to crumble, the people around me started to change. Friends didn't call anymore, In-Laws turned against me. The social benefits of the "Club" were stripped from me. I was deserted and left alone. All of this unraveling from just a single shift of perspective in my mind.
What if a lot of our life is like that?
Changing our reality with just a single shift of perspective and the ripple effect it causes throughout our whole existence...
But...little did I know,
For the next 7 years I was going to be taken on a deeply transformational spiritual journey to correct my:
Values
Conditioning
False Perspectives
Illusions about Reality
Things started to change when I started hauling freight over-the-road. Those long miles and long hours kept me isolated. On the move, but in a mobile prison. I had so much time to think, listen to hours of information from audiobooks, Youtube videos, and lectures...
I mainly focused on information about different spiritual perspectives on life. Those ancient and those that were new...
Some of this information, the people I eventually connected with, the books I bought, the things I tried, led me to take some calculated risks with exploring other spiritual perspectives.
I went to Nigeria for the first time. I got various "Spiritual Consultations" from different spiritual systems. I followed so many "Gurus" that I ended up getting confused all over again.
"Why did I go on this journey just to end up confused as hell again?"
But one day, after contemplating on this confusion it hit me...
All of these outward systems, perspectives, and beliefs; Do any of them point you inwardly?
I could trace the foundation of the thought to a series of videos that spoke about the importance of "Knowing Thyself". Knowing about yourself, your habits, cycles, strengthens, and weaknesses, is the key to mastering what is happening in your world.
It is liken to understanding the data behind your favorite character in a video game.
Many speculate that we are in a simulation or in some sort of a game...
...Knowing Thyself is key to solving that mystery and answering that question.
There are many tools to assist one in doing so:
Alchemy...
Astrology...
Meditation...
Self Inquiry...
Journaling your life...
Gut health and Nutrition...
The one that I found that explained what I was going through for the past 7 years was a system called "Jyotisha" (Jyoe-tish-ah). During that 7 year period, I learned that I was going through what is called a "Dasa" (Dah-sha) period.
A Dasa period is a planetary period or chapter of your life that lasts for various years. This period is akin to a specifically themed chapter in a book.
The planetary chapter of life I was in at the time was: KETU (kay-too)
The theme for this chapter in my life:
Isolation
Liberation
Detachment
Dealing with being alone
Dissolving of false beliefs
Spiritual knowledge and truths
Cutting off from family and friends
Demystifying the illusions that have shackled my mind and hijacked my purpose in life...
...for 7 damn years lol
All of this I learned could be seen with just 3 accurate pieces of information from the most special moment of my existence: My Birth...
Since then, I have studied Jyotisha as a huge tool in my quest to "Know Myself". I have gotten pristine clarity on what I am supposed to do in this lifetime. This gives me a leg up in what I need to focus on to achieve my goals in life.
This level of clarity allows me to align myself with my purpose...
It automatically narrows down the mission I was born to complete. It also allows me to:
Develop unwavering focus...
Gain more awareness of my life's lessons...
Get clarity on what problems I should be solving...
Cut out unnecessary information that's contrary to my purpose...
Cut through the bullsh*t that otherwise leads to nothing but confusion...
I decided to share this small part of my journey with you after a long battle of whether I should or not. I have faced many dangerous situations in life, but for some reason, one of the most terrifying was being vulnerable. I want you to understand that there truly IS a story to your life.
"Every element that makes a good book, movie script, and all forms of storytelling all come from the fabric of existence." - Michael McGee
You have a reason for being here. You have a story that also plays out just like any book that you would read.
I want you to know that if you feel lost, you CAN be found. The answers are truly within you. I want you to leave this with you:
You are already prepackaged with all of the answers to your questions. With all the charlatans in this day and age, it brings great comfort to learn knowledge of self. Once you find a system that helps you to tap deeper into YOU...then you have found a wellspring of knowledge that will always be a guide to assist you in life.
The goal is spiritual independence...Period.
I know...a lot of times, life doesn't make sense.
But if you are anything like me, you will search for ways to help you make some sense of the chaos you experience. If you would like to talk to me to gain clarity and confirmation on the chapter of life you are in, you can book a Free 30 Minute Clarity call here where I use the same Jyotisha System that gave me so much clarity, to help give you some insights into where you are in your journey in life.
If I were to leave you with one thing to summarize what you have read so far it is this:
"You are all you truly need and don't let anyone tell you otherwise."
Thank you so much for reading and until next time, take good care of yourself!
Regards,
Michael J. McGee